Charming Rain

Today I started my own business I’m a little nervous but excited at the same time. http://www.mycharmingrain.com

I’m so nervous because I don’t know how this is going to turn out. I do have high hopes that I will do good but there’s also little doubt in the back of my mind. I wanted to do something for a very long time but always got discouraged after a few days. I really put a lot of time my heart into this project and I do hope that everyone does like my store. This is my first time ever running any type of business on my own so I’m always open to feedback things I can do better. So if you visit my store please leave me some comments or just let me know what I can do better. Thank you guys for your support

I Am Determined

I am determined to do something great with my life. I am more than a mom with 6 children. I am more than a mom that has more than one baby father. I am more than a statistic. I am determined to grow a business that will flourish and provide for my children and carry them through college. I am determined to do great in my community. I am determined to change the way people view black single mothers. I am determined to wake up every day with a smile on my face and live in positivity and won’t let no one take that away from me. I am determined to prove everyone wrong who said anything bad on my name and still smiled in my face. I am determined to prove everyone wrong that talk behind my back awesome. I am determined to prove people that have let me down when I needed them the most. I am determined to prove to myself that I did not bring six children into this world and lived in property. I am determined to be the best mother that I could possibly be. I am determined to make sure that I provide a stable future for these children. I am determined to buy a house and work for myself before the age of 30.

I’m not going to let anyone tell me anymore that I can’t do anything or and I can be whatever I want to be.

I am more than just a mother I’m a business woman

I have so many goals in my mind it’s so much I want to do and I know that I can do it.

Because I am determined

Grandfather

I miss him, the way he laughed, the way he smiled, the stories he used to tell. I often wish God would have given us a little bit more time but then I can also understand why he wanted to take him for himself. I often regret the time that I said I was coming and never showed up. All the times he would ask “when are you coming to see me?” and I never responded. Though I know he knows I love him with all my heart I still can’t seem to get over the fact that I didn’t get to tell him myself. I often look at his picture and think what would he say at this very moment and then I will laugh to myself cuz I know it would be something funny. I often thank God for giving me such a wonderful man in my life. To grow up right beside him while my parents were at work. I remember you use to pick us up from the bus stop and you always give us a ride on your scooter. All the Little Debbie cake she used to sneak us when our parents weren’t looking. I often think about how my kids are going to miss out on a wonderful great grandfather. I wish all my children were able to meet you but I know that you held them all until they came into my life. I often ask God why he didn’t give me a few more minutes but then who am I to question God but I just wanted to let you know that I miss you more than anything and I would do anything just to get one more phone call. Life is so much different without you though you’re in a better place pain-free in no longer sick I know sometimes It’s selfish of me to wish you were still here on Earth when you’re in such a beautiful place. But I just wanted to let you know I miss you and if you were here today I know we would be laughing and smiling telling us jokes on how we grew up.

I thank you for being such the most amazing person I ever met, A wonderful father, and there best grandfather a granddaughter could ever dream of.

I’ll never forget you ♥

Forgiveness

There’s a lot of people that I had to forgive in my life in order for me to move on and be okay with me. Forgiveness is not for the other person it is for you! For you to know that it is okay to be hurt by what they’ve done to you but it is also okay to move on and grow from it and learn a lesson. The biggest person in my life that I had to forgive was ME. I had to forgive myself for the mistakes I’ve made to put me in certain situations. Know that I made these mistakes and these mistakes may have hurt other people but I had to look at myself in the mirror and know that I’ve grown so much. I had to forgive myself for bringing children into this world that shouldn’t have been here at this moment but they’re here. I forgive myself for the people that I’ve may hurt intentionally and unintentionally. I forgive myself for all the times that I took from others when they had nothing. I forgive myself for allowing people to treat me horribly and still give them my all. I forgive myself for not speaking up when it was time to speak up rather than hiding behind the crowd. I forgive myself for those who I’ve let down because it was time that I didn’t even have myself picked up. I had to forgive myself for wanting to be a part of something that I should have never been a part of. And last but not least I had to forgive myself for not loving me FIRST.

Sometimes you have to forgive yourself first before you can start forgiving other people.

An in this very moment as I write this blog I just forgave myself.

My Inspiration

I decided to start this blog to share my accomplishments, my Success, my failures, setbacks, the good and the bad. We all have been through many things in life but some of us aren’t strong enough to share our stories or think you’re all alone. I’m writing these blogs to let you know that you’re not alone and that dark place that you’re in right now there’s always a light at the end of the tunnel. My life wasn’t the easiest and quite frankly the decisions I made it even harder, but I’m always finding ways to overcome every situation I’ve been in. I’ve been at the top where I had lots of money and I’ve been at the bottom where I had nothing. But I always had one thing, my inspiration my children. I am a young mother of six, five girls one boy and yes I did have them at a very young age and very close together not leaving much room for myself to grow as a woman. I grew up with my children. I learn life the hard way, I didn’t follow the rules I didn’t go to college and find a nice man and get married and live happily ever after. I kind of went backward if you ask me! I use to think that kind of things didn’t exist, being happy in life and being happy where you at in life. But my kids always remain the most important part of my life and no matter how bad I struggled they never noticed. I always made it happen sometimes I don’t even know how I made it happen but I know seeing the smiles on their face was the most rewarding gift of all. They make me want to be a better person a better mother. I always sit back and look at my life and things I could have done better things I should have done in the things that I’ve done that landed me where I am at today. But one thing I don’t regret and we’ll never be a mistake to me are my children. Yes they came at the wrong time they might have come at a bad time in my life but it always brought me great joy to be a mother. I won’t say I was the best mother in the whole entire world, but I did the best that I knew how what tools I had growing up. I’m still learning and there is no handbook on how to be a good mom. A good mom is different in everyone’s eyes but one thing that is the same for all of us is that we love our children with every breath in our body. These blogs will tell you a lot about me some personal stories, funny stories, sad stories but the thing I want all my readers to get out of my posts is a lesson. I want my readers to learn these lessons early in life so y’all can avoid the mistakes I made. I want my readers to know that even though you’ve made a lot of mistakes in your life you always can still come out on top. I’m still climbing that tunnel and I will make it to the top because I have six inspirational people in my life and they call me Mom.